Has it ever happened. When you are manipulated as a puppet and things don't go your way 85% of the time? Have you ever get threatened to do things you don't want? I have. It's all not about me. It's about them.

Who wants to live through hell, typically I am living through it right here right now. Poor personalities comes from poor life that I have had. Ever thought so? Maybe that I am not f*** up over this life.

Sometimes a part of me feel like dying right now, but forget it, only some can understand me, my family members, all I can think of is my dad. Nobody else. Forget, blame myself for having a f*** up life anyway.

The first part of Welcome to my life by Simple Plan fits me best...

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming*

Except it is not screaming, but things that are pointing directly at you and you can't do anything about it. Which include scolding, nagging, threathening and such.

Not in the right mind now,

Life always sucks to me. Sucks to be me then.

Ciao~

Well, I can say that I am back from Langkawi, well, back as in 2 days ago, haha. Well, final thoughts. Good. Well, as usual, I'll give a summary....

Day One

We departed Singapore at about 5.30-6am, forgot the time exactly. My bro and I got a first glimpse of the new JB checkpoint building. Well, it's architecture is impressive, but is not really efficient. We took a long 3 minutes waiting to clear the station, then to the next part which is checking of the bags comparing back to the old checckpoint which finshes the job quickly. Carrying on, we went for some breakfast. I ate 10 RM worth of food. Lol. It was okay, soup with abalone strips and those clam abalones. Quite worth it in my opinion.

After breakfast, we then began our road trip to Langkawi, yes we are DRIVING up. Well, took a long 6 hours to Ipoh. Where we checked into a hotel, and began some shopping. The road was comfortable, till I slept quite a way through, although reaching Ipoh was a great sight, you see some huge rocks that you may have never seen in your life. Lol, my bro was smart, he brought a pillow along and slept almost the whole journey, typically.

So checked into the hotel, ate some nice Crab Tung Hoon, it was delicious I can say, we were typically on a eating spree. And in the night, went to eat again, Ipoh's Chicken rice, only without the rice, we had kuay teow instead. Meatballs were good. Went to a "Pasar Malam" there, nothing for me to buy. So we headed back to the hotel.

Day Two

Left the hotel after having a buffet breakfast, then proceeded to this place called Kuala Kedah to take a ferry, another 2.5 hours drive. Bro started sleeping again, as he did, he said he shasn't slept for 72 hours...excluding the previous day.

So we reached this Kuala Kedah place, and had lunch there, my mom went into a toilet and saw a rat, then we informed the staff, who went in to check it out, the reaction was awesome, they started shrieking, amazingly I did not get a stomachache! Lol. Then we also found a new name for plain water, "Sky Juice". Lol. After the meal, we headed to the ferry terminal, in which we can't travel by car-on-a-ferry, so we left our car at the terminal and boarded a 2.30pm ferry on the way to Langkawi, listened to my iPod while other commuters had to listen to some TV, with no pictures but with sounds. Haha. Epic.

When we reached, we rented a pathetic car as we can say, but it was alright, the petrol was not full and we had to pump it. Checked into a great resort, with a jacuzzi in it, well the room was great, although we only had two twin beds. So I slept on a couch for the day, but speaking earlier...

For dinner, we had like a big feast, we headed to a restaurant and ate like LOTS of seafood, stingrays, squid, "La-las", and kangkong. It was like close to about 2-3 kg of food then. We then headed to ANOTHER restaurant, and ate some fish, prawn and squid again. I was stuffed. I then headed to the lobby to get my internet. Used for a while, then went to bed. After watching Star World.

Day Three

Left my room at about 8am, ate breakfast, which was again buffet, but a grander one, they had STEAKS for breakfast! So why care? I just took my fill, not thinking about lunch, and then went back to the hotel room. We then went out to see animals typically. First was a trip to their Underwater World, a little disappointed in not seeing any but 1 shark. But we saw lots of Stingrays. Lol.

Second was a trip to the Crocodile Farm, it was alright, although we did miss the show :(. We then saw this crocodile which had no teeth, but it did look tamed, and not intimidating. We then went to eat some Coconut, the water was amazing I can say, chilled to perfection. Lunch came after, thank god I ate much for breakfast. Oyster Omelette, Pomfret and whats other, Fried rice and kailan. it was alright though, and I ate Coconut again lol.

I followed my bro to explore the resort, we headed to the swimming pool, and then to a pointless trip to the beach, where we walked in circles, we did manage to find some crabs, small ones, they are like camouflaged with sand color. Headed back to the hotel, took a soak in the jacuzzi, then headed for dinner. Dinner was Seafood again, was pretty full after that and we headed back to the resort where I had to go to get internet again. :D. Came back watched TV and slept in the twin bed this time ^^.

Day Four-Five

Breakfast as usual with Steaks again. Robbed many and then headed back to the room, packed up, went on a bit of driving with my mom, then went back to the hotel lobby for surfing, while my mom and bro checked out. We then headed back to the ferry terminal of Langkawi, and booked a ferry and went for lunch, Kenny Rogers. We then headed to the ferry....

We went into the ferry, and was amazed to see someone occupying our seat. We then decided since it was so inconvinient, we headed to the back to sit, which was SO HOT. I can lose 500g just by sitting there all day! Oh well, reached the jetty and decided to drive all the way back to Singapore, with stopping at Muar. Reached Muar and prayed for Assam fish, which I had. Thank god, and drove back to Singapore. Another 2 hours, reached Singapore at 3am. Went back home, lay on my bed, and got knocked out.

Well that is about it. Shall update this post if something is there.

Ciao~

I didn't notice the clock says 22nd December 2008, I thought it was the 21st. Poor me. D:

Anyway, I'm going for a trip from tomorrow, then I'll be riding, or can say, having a road trip. Gotta charge up my iPod, and I'm bringing my lappy with me, they only have internet in public areas. Bah. So...my mom bought me NBA Live 09. It is wicked. And it is better than 08. I can say. Why? Graphics....looks much better. Still using New Orleans Hornets and Chris Paul :). Well I played 3 games on Xbox Live, winning two and losing one cos' it's the Boston Celtics, freaking gay team, and a feaking gay player. But my third game, this guy was losing me by close to 20 points, then he quit game. LOL.

Now what to do? Perhaps gunna play back some games I haven't been catching up to lately. and yeah.

So particularly gunna have fun in Malaysia. Wish me luck ;)

Ciao~

Once again, thanks for those that wished me a happy birthday. I think I got more than 30+ this year. Yeah, it's good to be legal. A Pity some forgot about it.... :(

Anyway, had Yuki Yaki with a coupla of friends, I would like to thank Josh, Derrick, Carol, Mas, Wendy, Hex, Faris & Teri for turning up for the dinner, it was a fun time playing with the ice-cream buffet. :D

My mom and bro are back, and my bro too got his Ns back, he did quite well, I can say, a proud brother.

Anyhows, Christmas is coming too, and I just love this time of the year, as my birthday and christmas presents are usually bundled together. 100% fun....Although I didn't really get ANY presents this year, other than the Xbox which I bought from ZW for myself.

Soon I'm looking forward for a trip to Malaysia, Langkawi to be exact. To finally relax....Ah well.

Now to go back to boredom,

Ciao~

And duh...I like it!

Typically being playing with the Xbox 360 I bought from ZW. It's so cool. Lol. Although one game only, I suspect more coming soon. :)

Well Jon came over to my place and stayed 2 nights, it was a good time spending the last days with him before he enters NS. Lol. But hey, look on the bright side, you get to work. Not like me slacking at home doing nothing now. Haha. Anyway, the final Econ paper is okay. Many said it was Easy. Gunna have my rank pulled down in class oredi, lol. Never study...:)

Well, Xbox Live Gold is awesome. But what I really wanna say now is,

TIME TO BORE MYSELF TO DEATH!!!

WEEEEEEE!

Ciao~

THIS!!!!!

Gawd...I'm so screwed...three more papers...JY guys!

TG went quite well, I think I screwed Central USA, seriously...I misplaced Montana, Wyoming and the Dakotas! Damn.

FO was alright, although I did have some doubts. :/

Now for thisssss.....then Econs.....:\

Well, I have now....47 bucks left till' Friday/ Saturday.

Now, I will have to live on Instant Noodles on Dinner for the rest of the week :/

Typically 2 packets of Instant noodles= 10 packets, I have some eggs so should be fine. Bah. I hate spending money, shouldn't have went to sing Kbox, it was like 35 bucks, I like spent....

25+35+8+3= 71 bucks on Monday. Gawd. Somehow I shouldn't even had gone out, better still gone home after dinner.

Ah well, let's see how I solve this situation :/

Ciao~

Lol...Apparently...I like to use the word apparently...hmm...

Something different....Well...Examinations are coming real soon, gotta be prepared son! Taking my papers on Tuesday thru Saturday. That is a heck of a week there...things to focus on...

1. TG
2. PoC
3. Micro

In that order. I wanna score in these...although I do much want to score well in FO as well. But, I need to focus on PoC, since our presentation did not really go that well. Idk how much I need for a B+ for English but Benny's grade for that 50% is B. So yeah, need to make the necessary improvements. :/

Well. Gotta go SUNTEC tomorrow. Have some fun, and I hope to enjoy myself! Yeah. Like, lots. Am also gonna eat little for lunch.

Anyhows, gotta start studying d00dz, no time for play...

Damn I hate my spacebar with my typing speed. >:(

Ciaos~

This song is really just EPIC....seriously...

If Today Was Your Last Day- Nickelback

My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each day's a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride

If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
If today was your last day

Against the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the prize is always worth the fight
Every second counts 'cause there's no second try
So live like you'll never live it twice
Don't take the free ride in your own life

If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past

Donate every dime you have?
Would you call old friends you never see?
Reminisce of memories
Would you forgive your enemies?
Would you find that one you're dreamin' of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you finally fall in love
If today was your last day

If today was your last day
Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?
You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are
So do whatever it takes
'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life
Let nothin' stand in your way
Cause the hands of time are never on your side

If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?

Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
Would you call old friends you never see?
Reminisce of memories
Would you forgive your enemies?
Would you find that one you're dreamin' of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you finally fall in love
If today was your last day...

Bah, one more day to the end of the projects, where I can finally focus on studying for my examinations. I'm so not going to fail PoC! Really. I don't want to end up retaking and paying lots of cash for a re-sit. :/

Anyway, gotta run, have to play a lil' games and do abit for the project and have some fun later, Josh house later...so yeap. :D

Ciaos~